I am sorry Yumi, that I didn't support your feelings in your voice card. I forget, when I see people I know who are going through a rough time, that it really does hurt. I know you well enough to see that this is another growth phase for you and you will find your way.

What I jump right over is the middle part - the painful growing part. I understand you are in-change and I know you will be fine. I am sorry I did not let you know I care for you even in this middle-turmoil-lost-person part. (I hope this made some sense )

I have observed from my own experiences and that of the few people I care to know that well, nothing someone else can say or do really helps. We all seem to move through these experiences at our own rate and in our own way. For myself, the resolution always seems to be an "AHA" awareness.

I know you LOVE to read, so like John, I will suggest a book. I think you will recognize some of your own feelings in it. It is "The Road Less Traveled" by M. Scott Peck. Try it with a nice hot bubble bath or a big bowl of ice cream.