What a woman you are describing! Benignly off-center, quirky life outlook, and immensely tolerant. Does she really exist? As long as you are dreaming, throw in some money (or other financial security) and love of sex! (Which reminds me of a joke about how to make a woman immobile from the waist down. Marry her.)

What are you like day-to-day? Do you make yourself laugh at least once a day? Would you be tolerant of another person living at close quarters involved in their own special projects to your exclusion? How would you divide the drudgery stuff? By default (like my ex-)? What about money!? That and sex are the usual sore points in a marriage. (Yes, personal experience speaking.)

Actually the most important part of a "marriage" is the ability to communicate. It takes alot of practice and perseverance at times. The laundry, cooking, and toilet bowl cleaning are nothing compared to a sulking, silent partner. Or one who shares only what they thought you would like to hear.

I don't know John, but you may have to settle for a common female and just feed her frequently.

Your description of your soul-mate reminded me of a good movie, A Thousand Clowns with Jason Robards. It is an enjoyable movie and probably will have some meaning for you.